My Story

The past 5 years of being a single daddy has been the biggest challenge of my life. I was a partier and i always blew off responsibilities till i found out that i was going to have my first child (Jordan).

The very first time i held him in my arms i made a promise that I will never back out on….i promised him i would never leave and i will teach him the ways in life and i would always make him feel loved ,and i promised the very same when my little girl arrived.

Their mother and i had a love hate relationship and it was starting to be known in our home and our kids could notice,we both made mistakes that we can never change but to move on is all we can do. I thought i had it hard, having to earn the money to keep our kids and there mom feed, and making sure all the bills were paid. I would come home from work and eat and then play with the kids and spend time with them on my days off. I never stopped and seen what she had to do until 5 years ago.

Me and there mom had been bickering back and forth that day and into the night, she went out with one of her friends and said she would be back in a few hours and she never returned, leaving me and the kids in the dark,scared and worried.

I sat up all night waiting for her and then i came to accept she wasent coming back home. She contacted me the next day to inform me she had left and said she would be happy for me to keep the children cause of her situation. I was scared to death but was more than willing to step up and do it on my own.

It was the hardest thing to tell my kids there mama wasent coming back home. I will never forget the look in their eyes and the tears that came rolling down there poor little faces. It was hard for them to see daddy do it all when they was used to mommy taking care of the house. I could see how miserable they were and i was lost with a broken heart and a fake smile on. The kids seemed distant from me and thats when i understood that i had to earn there trust. I did all i could,  i made special meals and took them out and bought them toys  etc. and nothen ever worked all they did was sit in depression.

Then it finally hit me…they didnt need toys nor money, they needed me, i was the only one that could mend their little hearts, night after night tears came from there eyes as they asked wheres mommy, i never knew what to say till one night i said to myself they need you now go fix them.

It was the middle of the night and there was a thunder storm and it knocked out our electricity, with a thunder bolt they screamed out for mommy. I hurd them and said to myself this is it, im going to make it right. As i heard there crys i got up and walked to their room with nothen but fear of rejection. I brought 2 candels with me and they looked up at me and said where is mommy? I finally said mommy loves you but it will be me standing here next to you always and forever,they looked at me with confusion and my son said daddy i miss mommy. I replied she has her own place now but i want to earn your trust i want you two to understand that im never going to leave and they said mommy did so you will to. I hit my knees and swore to them i would never walk out and i reminded them of the promise i made the day they was born. Tears were full in there eyes and also in mine and i grabbed there little hands and said we will make it i will never give up and as they sobbed i held them close in the candle light. I got back down on my knees in front of them and said lets make this official of my love and my promises to you both….hold your fist out and i tapped the top as they tapped mine next and i said we can call this home team cause we are a team and i will never break one promise and we cried till we fell asleep together on one of there beds. When we woke the next morning i knew were complete.

Even tho there has been issues and trials along the way that night will forever stick with me as i know it will to them also. To this very day we still do home team and i sware i will never stop. To teach my son how to be a respectful man and my daughter to be a strong female means everything to me, there is more to come please come back and finish reading it after i update,thank you.